come back from coma

hai, annyeong........i'm back right after i found some of my broken spirit. this last few weeks was quit hard that i had to endure pain and shock. yeah, it was about kris n his lawsuit against sme. exo fans received such a dangerous heart attack right before the boys first concert (well, i was crying knowing they had concert n i couldn't go, but, i'm willingly crying over that rather than this drama). i was literally paralized both mentally and physically. i remember clearly, that noon i did surfing n found this heartbreaking news and couldn't think of anything for minutes. never, even in my most wild dream, i ever imagined this kind of thing happened. i mean, oh please, my first group crush had already doomed with this kind of problem (ehem, DB5K, ehem) then why my second crush has to walk the same path??? just 2 years after their debut???? and the worst thing is, kris is my bias in exo. well, whoever exo member, i would be super sad if they wanted to out from the group since i love all of the members. but, hey, kris was my first member that got my attention and i couldn't take my eye from him.
seriously, i couldn't think and rest peacefully since the news out. i kept rewatching exo showtime. the very first show that left me in dazed due to our duizhang unique charm (read: stupidity). i kept crying after watched exo-k overdose (after the kris news out). overdose was such great and powerful song with superb choreography, but i moved my tears saw the members and thought that their galaxy was trying to has separate way with them. i smiled like crazy since for the same time i also cried.

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being kpop fans was not easy from the very first place. none of people around me has same taste with me in term of music. then, in this difficult moment i couldn't find someone whom share this sadness together. my friends just laughed at me every time i tried to tell them my feeling. they kept told me to wake up from dream n live in real life. like i wouldn't, i really, sincerely hoped that all of this kris thing was just a dream and woke with news about 12 members of exo having successful asia concert. hell yeah, i couldn't blame them since they didn't understand how it feels.

i watched the press conference in d-3 of their concert in seoul and strangely, i didn't find tao's (the news told so) statement about "11 members" angering me. i understood him. he adored duizhang more than other, hence if some sensitive problem like this matter happened, he would feel really bad-upsetting-nasty-heartache. he felt betrayed. from the first place, tao wasn't that mature to manage his emotion, even our leader suho seemed struggle to control this betraying feeling (remember his statement during his speech for their first mcd win?). i understood all. even, if it was really the members itself who unfollowed kris on his IG. human would pass the first step when they got bad news: disapproval. then they would move to next step which is anger. this anger time last quite long, until this anger cool down, they would try to bargain. i thought that most of the members are still in the state of anger. when they couldn't find any answer about the root of this problem.

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i personally had my own private matter beside this. my new teacher was such person who loves perfection and thought that all of her students have above average in term of knowledge. my packed schedule which is started on 05.00 and finished at 14.00 (if we don't have presentation) then if we get night shift, we have to move again to the next schedule at 16.00 till 05.00 then restarted again. at the night, when i have no night shift i recently remember the happy past moments of exo then started to cry. it's tiring. every time i listen to exo's song, tears were just flowing without command. it can't be helped since most of my most played playlist were exo's song. people might think that my response was overdo, but this was my real feeling. it was even thousand times more painful than when i broke up. strange but true.
actually some parts of my heart still believe that kris will be back. why? since sme's responds was still too vague to me. it seemed that they still wanted kris back (jebaaaaal). also, kris never showed up after this news (well, only the pict he posted on his IG). sme's statement about how they couldn't reach kris seemed true. i personally think that the staff also taken a back of this matter.
well, everything was so confusing. kris looked okay and fine (by this i mean he seemed happy and enjoy exo-m activities) in bts of overdose mv filming & iQiyi i love dapai interview. that was such short period of time of those interview with the news and only a week before the concert. what kind of problem that made him in such russh and seemly inconsiderate choice to file the lawsuit??? i really wanted to know. or, if kris felt bad for this whole time of exo activities, then i should say that he was such a great actor to not show it at all in front of the camera and the members. but i was so sure that all of his laughs and smile were ome from his sincere heart. 

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i will wait. we need those 00 to become 100. i believe that we will see both again on same stage soon

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found this from facebook. hopefully it won't come to that state. fighting!!!

i really hope the best for this matter. forever love u guys!!!! fighting, fighting, fighting!!!!!!
WE ARE ONE!!!!!!
XOXO

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E.X.O overdose

 *note: believe it or not, i began to write this post since 23 pm, soon after i completed my download for both albums. but i finished this like 12 hours later; since i slept, so sleepy last night and i kept distracted. from downloading fail, bathing, eating and browsing. i also need to keep listen the tracks so i could write what i really feel about this albums.
after so much works, finally i can completely post this, here the original post ^^

it has been told that exo will be release their 2nd mini album on 7th at 00.00 am KMT. after like years hundred delayed, finally those good news came out. i almost jump over the ceiling when read that. so happy and excited!!! but then i realize that it was the date for the mini album, not the official mv (i'm hunger to the high quality video) but then i should thank god very much. at least i will get new playlist soon in my phone.

i've been thought whether i sleep or just sitting in front of my laptop waiting for the release. and then, after coming home i connect to the internet n some fp said the album has just released through baidu. not too expecting i went to my favorite page which always update about kpop, and there it was. sitting cooly in the very first page! it had it!!! the new mini albums!! both korean and chinese!!!!

i need to get blood in my hands to access the link since the traffic was pretty bad. o yeah, so many fans just tried their best to get these a.s.a.p. i understand, but i kept trying. and jreng jreng jreeeenggg.....i got it!!! omg i got it!!!!

so sorry i can't share the mp3 here, i don't know how, so just  jump to those links ^^

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1. overdose, well i admit it. i'm not so good or patience fans. my budget is sooo limited that i couldn't purchase any of their albums. i've listened to this track thousand times when the mv from their showcase came out and never got bored. i mean how could u get tired of this suuuupeeeeeer cool song, eh? but listen to the song before its officially released was pretty half good half bad idea. for the good, i got to know the song and the bad was i kept whinning to listen to the official one. whatever, i had that wish now n dying of happiness. from the tittle, well it really suited, it truly overdose u, watchout gals!! i love the feeling when the music keep ringing in my left and right ear then harmonize together. well i know zero about music so i can't really tell how it heard with profesional words.but our suho said that thi is an urban rnb dance. i especially love when suho sang on 02.06 then d.o then suho again then baek. how great!!! <3 <3. i give this 5/5, well it could b considered unfair since i listened to it way more than others. but what can i say? it's really a nice song ><. it's really got u into overdose!!!
2. moonlight, honestly i'm not fan of slow tempo track. even in the very first medley, i didn't expect much. but after listening to the full ver, i should admit that even this track was more than good to keep u listen them again again n again. btw i heard some strange words like 'shower' and 'story'. well, those words shouldn't b labeled strange, it just me didn't even understand why i felt wander when i heard those in this song. from the tittle, i thought it could be telling romantic story, well i always relate moon, star, and other galaxy (lol kris!) things to be about sweet mysterious love story. anyway, this song also good, though it needed more than once to make it growth inside me (twice exactly, the number needed to make me really love moonlight). well, this got 4,5/5 from me <3
3. thunder, boom boom boom boom, it really boomed me!!!! if moonlight didn't impress me during medley, thunder did. very well. no wonder if i expect super high about this track. and the full ver??? well, it met my expectation, if not more. i kept wide smile like crazy when listen to this for the first. really addiction!!! i also love the playword, where they keep the same syllable for the each verse ending. how to explain it? just listen to it and u will understand me><. when they kept repeating 'thunder 3x', i could hear how good d.o' pronounciation is! in this track u will also able to hear chanyeol' voice when he sang, yup sang. not rap. like moonlight i also heard strange word here, i heard gender???!!! really, what kind of  story that thunder offer to make such word came out??? well, it also i heard it wrong. we will check it once i find the lyrics ^^.. for the poin, u should be able to guess it rite? yup, it's 5/5 <3 <3
4. run, yeah girls, u better keep run away from exo if u are not mentally prepared for their awesomeness. first listening this in their showcase, and their gestures when 'aaaaaaa yup' part were so epic. it seemed playful song full of happiness. it remind me to 3.5.6. a song that could make u jump all over ur room while listening to it. really!! hello hello oo!! at first glance, when u just look the tittle, u will remember their debut teaser tittled run & gun. i mistaken for a moment, thinking that it would be the same music, but heck yeah. i was wrong. totally different feel. if run & gun was a great track with superb dance move that would be hard for people like me, this 'run' is kind of happy song where u can just follow the rhythm and trust ur body to move. it's fun to have similar 'kamehameha' move in 'aaaaaaaa yup'. it's a kind of song which u can pretend have air lightstick and shake them excitedly. the score? hhhmmmmmm,,, 4,5/5 <3
5. love love love, another slow track that failed to attract me, i didn't notice that this was the same title with my other crush idol: db5k. so boring that i didn't even remember which part of this song that put in medley before. but i surprised when heard the full ver, it was even more shocking than moonlight!!! this song has some chinese traditional music touch that made this soo different to the entirely other tracks. it was so good that i wander myself, did sm purposely put the not too good part in medley for this song?? totally owesome, this song deserve ur attention. it less energic than run but still contain happiness that will make u smile widely. i personally love the 'a-uh' part. as if they didn't forget their wolf instict in this album (awoooo, sound similar;)). i just couldn't find any more words to describe this song, it just great, daebakk, jjang tract. u won't have any regret listen to this XD. it's 4,5/4 <3

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1. overdose, well in this m section i will only compare the k & m ver since the song is just the same anyway. in this m ver i reeaaaaaalyy love luhan's first part. dunno why, but his pronounciation was really great in chinese (he is chinese for sure, so no wonder lolz) that made me repeat that part again n again . the other, i also addicted to lay' (also) very first part. the way he said 'liu' (is it true? dunno) was very great that always successfully moved my finger to kept 'rewind' button. this guy truly amazing, he was my bias crusher u know? i was super happy knowing our bun xiumin got much more part here. he really had those beautiful voice yet we couldn't hear that often. fact about suho' part was sung by lay in m ver was suuupeer good idea. i also love when lay sang in the mid of song, the exact part of which i told u i like suho' part before. yup, at 02.06, when he sang with luhan and chen. and chen, hey, how came i forget our troll?? should i praise him more? he is really superb, fact that he is the main vocal in m although his chines was limited really cool, eh? i don't know much about chinese, but even the chinese people praised him for his accurate pronounciation in mandarin when he sang. he practiced hard for sure. well i'd like to clap for both chen n xiumin for their hardwork in mandarin, i'd rather study about science than practice mandarin, really difficult!! hehehe, i love both korean and chinese ver of this song <3 <3
2. moonlight, nothing particular, i didn't listen much to this track since i kept replaying the k ver for reviewing purpose. ke he he he he. it shouldn't be any huge difference right? chen' and luhan' harmonize together reminded me of their what is love. this m ver strangely gave me feeling of el dorado when i listened to it. not the tittle, but the vibe resulted from their voices and the music.
3. thunder, i jumped to this in my playlist once i completed my download for m ver. and, it just as great as k ver!!!! i still guessing who was the one sang 'thunder3x' though. who was he?? well, we weill know soon ><. i love hearing our xiumin' here. maybe just because of his image, but i kept imagine bunch of bun (or his cheek??) whenever i heard his. one thing that quiet surprisd me was when i heard kris'. really just then i realized that i listened to the m ver. i love how small the difference in language influence me to listen to their song.
4. run, i got chance to heard a little bit of this song during the showcase (they sang it in mandarin-korean-mandarin). firstly, let's walking around excitedly while keep this song in ur ears <3.and din't forget our 'kamehameha' move guys!!!!!
5. love love love, how it will sound, traditional chinese music with mandarin lyrics? only one answer. perfect. began with kris bass voice and cool rap. really, i don't feel any galaxy things  from our galaxy dude at all (u will forget how nerd-cute kris are in this). i even didn't really notice that this song began with the rapper. once i listened to m ver, i hurriedly checked the k ver to make sure whether they started it with chanyeol. of course they were, babbo ><. apart from great beginning, i should admit that i prefer d.o' from k ver than luhan' (sorry, but d.o was my very first bias in exo). luhan sounded great too but i couldn't help but thinking that d.o' suited the song better. well, those difference that made exo super duper ultra mega cool rite? 

the only ashamed thing that i could thing about these minis was sm didn't put overdose EXO, yes, exo, not k or m but both, ver in this. so if u want to heard 12 of them singing together, u need to watch the mv

fyuhh, finally. i finished talking about those songs. when i traced back again, i just like, it didn't that long, but why it took so much time to write it down?????


well then, i need to hurry since i had made appointment with my friend. i'll comeback to make review about the mv. i think i have so many to talk about this overdose thing
see ya.....
XOXO

holiday, just me n my laptop

oh yeah, it's holiday. finally, after my last exam that felt like a waste. don't get me wrong. my last exam didn't go badly, but i wasn't sure it was smooth as i expected though. the problem was my teacher gave me another questions about material i didn't read deeply. i mean , i thought we would discuss about A but then he asked about B. since he was such a nice person, even when we (yup, we, i and my friends) couldn't give him a truly correct answers he just smiled n laughed. well, this teacher was famous to be truly care about his students and dislike gave them trouble. but still!! i didn't sleep for 2 days in preparing that exam, but then yeah that happened. immediately after he announced the material i just felt like throwing away my note contained everything from book i read.

u can see, pict above was taken before n after the exam. in before pict u see i smiled brightly, even my face brighter n the lighting in the room good enough to take pict with my phone. in before pict, my face a bit darken (hell yeah, it was hours later after i put my bb cream. this was different room with not so good lighting) but still smiled brightly. lolz.

well, forget about the exam, i'm pretty sure that all of us won't get bad grade afterall. then, today is the third day of our week off and almost all of my friends back home. i alone in this house (except for the landlord of course). but i don't feel lonely at all. i have my laptop and connection to internet (thanks to my mother who kindly gave me the money). but still, my biggest reason to hurriedly recharge my connection still zero. what? yeah, exo still make comeback yet. they said that exo will release their mini album 7th, but dunno anything about the official mv.
exo-m has made comeback though, but the quality of vid...irarely found good vid even in 720. plus the cameraman didn't do their job properly :P
cause their didn't hold comeback yet, i then downloaded another things i could. i watched endless love (trust me or not, this was my first time saw those drama) n seeing song hye kyo rushly made me rewatched full house. i'd like to make my review about two dramas, but i think later....
ah, i also rewatched mvp lover, actually i didn't sure whether 'rewatch' was proper word since i watch it in my childhood but halfly. yeah, just halfly since i couldn't watch full eps (i used to go to full day school). i also wanted to make review about mvp lover. but still, later,,,,kehkehkehkeh
btw, i'm not take a bath yet ( i know, i know, it's already noon, but this is holiday rite? it's legal to even don't take bath 'till evening. lols). bye bye, i need to watch running man
XOXO

escape

Gyyaaaaahhhhhhh,,,,,,tomorrow i'll have my last exam for this station n yet i still sitting here surfing, boring. i really shouldn't do this, but my head felt heavy n strangely those headache disappear when i'm not studying. lol.
then, what should i write here? eemmm, firstly i almost forget that i had blog. nowdays i loved to read reviews about korean beauty product from kindly blogger all over the world. n that made me want to review mine also, though i don't have many products from korea but from the first i loved to try new product. from foods to cosmetics. i want to share my opinion about what i'm using now, but i haven't take their picts yet, so i think post without picts will be suuperr boring. i'll take some after my test ^^
btw, my network connection is in dangerous cuz i've used almost all gb that i had *crying. i hope it will stay until i get my money to repurchase it.

just like i said before, a post without single pict will be so plain, so i decided to find some old photos just to make it look full. kekekeke,,,

i'll find something good to post later
bye bye..<3